Invisibility

Is is it possible to be invisible in a crowd of people?
Is it possible to have tears streaming down your face and be invisible?
Is it possible that when you need comfort more than anything your still invisible?
Yes, its posssible. I know because this is how I live, I live an invisible life. Twice a week I go and sit, only to be ignored or forgotten by those I wish to know. I watch them laugh, I watch them talk, and I watch them comfort each other when comfort is needed. This has been the story of my life. I used to tell myself that I didnt mind being invisble, that I liked being left alone, I was lying to myself. I kept telling myself that so it wouldnt hurt as much. Then one day I decided to accept the fact that being invisible is not what I truly want. But you know after being invisible for so long I dont know how to become visible. When I try my hardest to become visible I am still invisible, its like they are blind to me, they cant see there for they dont talk to me or think about me. I want to be visible, Know I only have to figure out how to do that.

Hello!

Hello and Welcome to my blog...the things I post here are how I feel and think...

Places I Want To See And Visit

And yes I know that some of these places are the same but its my list

France
Isle of Man
Austriala
Italy
Venice
Europe
Romania
Rome
Greece
All 50 States of the US
England
Paris
Switzerland
China
Hong Kong
Japan
Korea
Russia


And I will add more as I think of them

Freinds

So, here I am again, since my last blog I have moved from Txas to Alabama, I have dealt with realizing that I loved some one yet they didnt feel the same for me. My granmother has had two surgerys. And I have been supported through it all by my friends. No not the kind of friends that you are thinking about, I have never met my friends in real life I have met them through pictures and words keyboards and computers. And even tho I have never met them I still feel as if they are a big part of my life. I hagte when I'm not able to get on and talk with them, and I worry about them when I dont see them for days. Some may not be able to understand this but I do, I had at one time looked skeptical about falling in love online, but I know that it is possible, to loce and care about someone and never meet them. One day I hope to meet some of my freinds. Most live in other Countrys places that I've never heard of before, places I want to go to one day. When one is sick I think and pray for them before I'm able to sleep, if there is trouble in the place that they live I worry untill I hear from them. They are my freinds and when RL freinds fail me my Freinds online are always there.