Another day

Well, after only 4 hours of sleep, I go to work ect ect. But that's not why I'm writing today. Last night I was surfing myspace and I found D's webpage, and seen that he has been on recently so I look through and before I'm done I feel sick and I'm crying. *sigh* I miss him so much, but other than that he's drinking now, and apprently not in church...it so sucks and its hard to describe how or why I felt this way. I realized that I loved him...probably more than I should...*sight* so now that I've addmitted it...maybe I can get past it.?